Today marks 5 weeks till the beginning of December. I have deemed December 1st the beginning of a marathon training cycle (yup, yup, yup), so, I'm going to spend these next 5 weeks getting my shit together.
Honestly, as much as I've been complaining and whining on the blog and to friends, it's not like I've just been sitting on my ass constantly. I have been running and mostly averaging around 30-35 miles a week. So... that's not a terrible base. It just doesn't feel like much, because I pretty much use ANY excuse to take a day off from running or to cut a run short or to walk. I'm running, but I've lost the discipline and I am hoping to use these next 5 weeks to get the discipline back.
I am hoping to bribe Coach with booze and sweet talk, if necessary to convince her to coach me again starting in December. But, for this little 5 week "refresher" course, I'm kind of excited about trying to draft my own little program. I figure in 5 weeks, I can't fuck too much up on my own.
You're right. Yes I can.
Week 1: Own it.
Yes, Amy, you are out of shape. It sucks, but it happens. I find myself saying "I'm out of shape" about 14 times a day to anyone who will at least feign interest, but, in the back of my head, I still think that I'm going to magically pull out a 5K PR or something. Which is just fucking idiotic. I'm just setting myself up for constant disappointment. So, admitting where I'm truly at and just finally accepting it, I think that I can do the things I need to do to move on. Including, but not limited to:
Stop being so whiny about it.
Stop using it as an excuse for everything.
Stop letting it keep me from enjoying running.
Stop feeling bad about myself because of it.
Stop being so frustrated about it.
So, my focus this week, is to disassociate myself from the runner I was this time last year, and starting owning who I am and where I am RIGHT NOW.
Me on October 27, 2014.
In all my out of shape, flabby, slow glory.
Unfortunately just SAYING that I'm going to own it, doesn't mean it just automatically happens, but I'm going to really work on it this week.
Here we go, bitches!