Those who know me well, know three things about me for sure: I'm crazy, I'm stubborn, and I'm disciplined (clarification: when I WANT to be). I know that my friends and family support me and believe in me and my ability to achieve goals. That's what friends and family do, right?
Recently, I was talking to someone that I had just met and I mentioned that I was training for my 5th marathon. I told them that I was really excited about this marathon, because I have really kicked my training up a few notches and that I'm shooting for a sub 4 hour finish. Of course (just as I would probably do) they asked me what my PR for the marathon is now. I told them, 4:43 and that it was back in November.
And their response offended me... a lot. Basically, their response was... about how that's a good way to get injured or burnt out, etc... And instead of punching the dude in the face (what I really wanted to do) I forced a smile and said... well, we'll see. And quickly changed the subject.
I know it sounds crazy. I know that shaving 45 minutes off my previous best (just a few months ago) seems impossible to some people. But, I know that as long as I stay injury-free and continue with my training that I can attain that goal. I really believe that. And normally, I could give a shit what other people think... but for some reason... I've had a hard time shaking that conversation. It's probably because I didn't stand up for myself and explain X, Y, and Z to them.
But the real problem is... that it's made me think about Eugene in 2008. My goal then was a 4:20 marathon. And you remember how that ended, right? With my slowest time ever. I loosely followed the same plan then as I am now. And that freaks the shit out of me.
But, I'm logging many more miles now (I've already cracked 50 miles a week the past two weeks and will do so many more weeks before the race... which, if memory serves me well, I think I've only had one 50+ mileage week... back in 2007). I'm consistently doing hill training and interval training. I'm losing weight and toning up (at least I'm trying to tone up).
I can do this. I know that I can. I may not could crack 4:20 in Eugene. But, I'm sure as hell not going to let the ghost of marathons past keep me from cracking 4:00 in St. Louis.