I like to think of myself as a positive person. It's something that I have to work at and be mindful of, but for me, it works.
Positive thoughts + positive speech + positive actions = Happy and productive April
Now obviously (unless you're the Dalai Lama or something) it's near impossible to be emit these positive vibes out into the world 100% of the time, but hey-I can at least try. That's why I've really been struggling lately with blogging on a consistent basis. I know that this is a running blog and injury is something that often comes with the sport, but I've been battling some injuries for quite some time now. They are relatively minor (shin splints, IT band), but are still causing me enough pain that my training has taken a serious blow.
Anyway, when I look back over my posts from the last few months, I see that a good number of them address my injuries. To me this isn't positive. It's whiny, complaining, woe as me kind of material and I just don't like it. So that's why I refused to blog unless I had some nice, uplifting stuff to talk about.
And well folks, that just ain't happenin. I have been able to run short distances-3-5 miles without any major hurting (even though my knee feels achy for days afterward), but anything over 6 miles, downright sucks. It hurts-bad.
My instinct is to tell myself to toughen up and run through the pain because really, mentally, I'm all there. But when it doesn't subside and I can't even walk for the next two days, I realize that um, maybe that wasn't the brightest idea.
So, I told Amy about my anti-negative blogging plan and she (as she usually does), straightened me out.
Amy: Nooooo dude, you gotta keep it real!! You have to blog about that stuff because all runners deal with it at some point or another. We have to blog about the ups AND downs of running.
me: But I wanna be hardcore! How can I have a blog called 26point2ers when I can't even run more than 6 miles with out wimping out!?!
Amy: Yes, you can. You just can't right now because you're injured. You have to let it heal completely and build your mileage back up before you attempt long runs.
And she's right. I hate it when she's right. Well, actually, I just hate it when I'm wrong (which rarely happens).
Now let's address the bottom line. I have a marathon in 6 weeks. I haven't run more than 13 miles at a time. We all know that it's just not gonna happen. It would be super dumb to try and run a marathon that I haven't been able to fully prepare for. It makes me just sick, but I really think that's the reality. Excuse me while I throw a temper tantrum....I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
But I've paid for the race, bought my plane ticket, planned to stay with friends and have been working so hard to raise $2,500 for the Multiple Myeloma Research Foundation. So I'm going. Yes, I am. I am going and I am going to start that race (Marine Corps Marathon). I might have to run the half, but I will be there.