Pick a marathon and get excited.
(Coach and me on day one of training).
Start training for the marathon.
Get smacked upside the head by training
and bitch and moan about it for about 12 weeks.
Run the marathon.
Get fucked by the marathon and
and complain about how I can't
put a race day together.
And as frustrating as it is for me, I know it's super frustrating and boring as a reader. I get it. I read a crap ton of blogs and half of those are written by people I want to shake and be like... what in the bloody hell are you doing, fuckwad??? The clear answer to all of this... is TAKE A GODDAMN BREAK FROM THE MARATHON.
And, I kinda have.... I have just been running around aimlessly for a couple of months now. But, the thing is... as much as I think that the marathon just isn't my distance "racing"-wise... I can't quit it. Am I scared of it? YES. Do I hate marathon race days? YES. Am I a stubborn idiot? YES YES YES.
So, while I can say... training for a marathon in the summer in Middle Tennessee is about the dumbest freaking thing someone can do... I can't say that I won't do it. Also, full disclosure... I think that the pressure of making a huge deal about a race... Weekly training reports on the blog! Telling all my friends what my race plans are! Announcing my goals! can cause me a lot of anxiety. Anxiety that I just don't need in addition to regular race anxiety.
All that to say... I'm probably going to start marathon training in a month or two and I'm probably going to keep pretty quiet about it. So, while I'll still do posts on whatever in the hell I'm up to and certain runs and workouts... there will be no... I'M RUNNING X RACE ON X DAY AND I'M TRAINING TO RUN A X:XX!!!!!! YAY!!! I'm just going to do the work and see what happens.
I agree with those of you who are like... just take an extended break from the marathon. But, unfortunately, I just don't think I can yet. In any case, hopefully I won't be super annoying/frustrating since I won't be droning on about a specific upcoming race. And I just wanted to let you all know that yes, I'm an idiot and yes, I'm going to be training. But, I'm not trying to be covert about it*, I'm just trying to minimize anxiety and pressure and I wanted to be upfront with you guys about it. Rest assured, when I get my BQ/PR
So, here's to a cranky summer! Any of you guys training during the summer?
*Mainly, I don't think I can write another "here's why I didn't run my goal" race report.